Sunday, February 05, 2006

If envy is a sin then I am the incurable sinner for I envy every eye that ever caught a glimpse of you. I envy the waves that carried your voice, and the air that touched your cheeks. I envy even the ground that once served you, and I confess to you that despite my indulgent sins, my shameful whimsies and ugly flimsies, I confess to you, "I love you." My confessions are as silly as my muted words. You have been loved by so many more substantial than I, and what good does my silence or confession possibly do? So many moments have I sat sheltered by the night in the midst of these books, my mind fulfilled but my heart calling for you. Only my shame restrains my words from filling pages of books and from whimpering into the night, "I long for you." This Conference of the Books, in countless days and nights, ignited by your memory, calls upon the world to ponder your legacy. Despite the citations, the arguments, and refutations, nothing equals a blissful moment spent engulfed in your adoration. For all the enlightenment of books, the brilliance of beauty, and the purification of light coalesced in the moments of time that hosted your life - Muhammad, Ahmad, Abu al-Qasim, al-nabi al-'amin, the messenger of God. Permit me my Prophet, my own beloved Prophet, to tell you that I do not know you from the majestic debates of this Conference, I do not know you from the learned lectures of teachers, or from some infatuated delusional dream. No, I do not know you from the books full of sayings you reportedly said, and I even do not know you from all the reports about your life and about your likes and dislikes. I know you from a moment in time in which I fell in love with you. I know you because God taught you, praised you, and honored you. I know you because God comforted you, consoled you, and empowered you. I know you because God loved you. My Prophet, I know you through a heart that loves.

Please note I did not write this passage.

7 Comments:

At 1:31 PM, Blogger .e!manie. said...

nura. i cant believe you have this. this has got to LITERALLY be my favorite book. one of the most inspiring, enlightening, most eloquently written..... i assume you're reading it judging by this post.... but, wow.... it is my favorite. hands down. he's apparently in the midst of writing another... and i cant wait to pick it up...

 
At 7:37 AM, Blogger Highlander said...

Nura you made me want to read this book . Thank you I went to check and found an excerpt online.

Where have you been hiding girl.

 
At 11:53 AM, Blogger JD said...

who wrote the book? seems so deep...great blog, visit me sometime

 
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At 2:19 AM, Blogger تطلعات إصلاحية said...

Hi Nurs,

Your mood is so nice. I know these word from " The Search for Beauty in Islam" By Khale Abou El FADL, p95.

Thank you

 

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